totally in love with it.
HAHAHAH

thats probly the major reason
i stick at home for the past three days.


okayyy,
gearing off to my jnrs and shooting agn!
OHHOHOHOHHH
laoda told me a damn hilarious-but-cute thing!

i've got a cute sec1,
who practises marching-plus-belok
on the way home!
when crossing the traffic light!
OMGOMGOMG!
ahhahaha!

its funny, but heart-warming.
okay, not exactly the right word,
but 欣慰！
when they actually hate footdrill?
see!
their amazing improvement do NOT come without sacrifice!

but well,
i'm still super worried abt their mindset.
it's ok!
leave it till future =X

woah!
big aaron just told me he got sth for me from jap!
he's the best la!
if he don't bastard me.
LOL!

these gestures made my day :]

so sick
Ne-Yo



Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

" all she replied was a typo!
she isn't any better than i am in this! "

" sir, that's a wink. "

" what? "

HAHAHAH

just a smiley.
it's good enough for a reply.
far better than what you've got.

this day.

this day you felt helpless.

" this day " makes all the other days
that you fight and you lose.

this day, makes you grateful for you to have a chance
to do anything at all

so, take it in.

remember " this day "


NOT FEELING EMO!
just a nice phrase from GREY'S
:] :] :]

what doesn't kill you,
makes you a stronger person

i realised,

i love to and listen to people's problems.
and most of the time,
it slowly became my problem.

when it comes my problem,
i don't know how,
to find someone to take over that role.
i don't know who,
to take over that role.

omg.
i wished i can trash these out as easy as anyone do.

on a lighter note,

happything #1
someone told me this today,
" LECTURE ME MAN! I KEEP PLAYING ONLY! "
oh, my monkey had grown up :]]]

happything #2
dino's side having christmas exchange this year again!!!

happything #3
a plan is coming up for ex-hitler
christmas partayyy!

when i passby your blog,
the first thing that came into my mind
"i am replaced."

second thing;
"you're not the one i know."
so is this denial or what? Haha.

I WILL START TO LOVE MY JUNIORS!
IN FACT, I'M STARTING TO LOVE THEM.
HAHHAAH,
ABIT SAD, BUT YA,
STARTING TO TRUELY LOVE THEM.
:D :D :D


after occupying my time with everything else,
i hear your name in my mind.

it should not work like this.

colour personality test.



Your mind is never at rest.You are continually striving to influence all those about you. You have some excellent ideas but you persist in trying to persuade others just how great your ideas really are. Maybe you are trying too hard. Take it easy - remember, 'Everything comes to those who wait'.

You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.

You feel truly deprived - not getting your fair share, but you have accepted the fact that that is the way things are at this time and that it is prudent to let matters slide and not hit your head against the wall -so conform and agree for a while. Accept the situation - nothing can last forever.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

You feel that you need to move on. You feel that you are not appreciated or valued for what you are and that the time is 'now'. Failure to do so will not afford you the conditions to prove your worth.

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

true?

"You want to be a decision maker
- to make up your own mind without interference."
HMmmmmm

i dunno what to write here,
hahahaahaa

my mind is blank,
with only thought.

wish you luck for saturday :]

is it true that joy is only dependent on
the way you perceive it?

alrights.
back from camp followed by chalet,
finally, back to work agn.
anderson's first nov comp trg.

got to know the sec1s only then.
hahahah
had super loads of trouble figuring out their names.
but they're generally alright,
but they're really newbies.
fresh from start.
made me feel reaaaaaaaaal old

although right from start,
back to basics,
but we have at least two months
lets see what we can do!
;]

burning the passion,
cradling the hope

9th november,
i'm finally back home.

this journey started on 7th nov.
when i started the day carrying large heavy bags to CHR for the camp.
like planned,
7th was also the release of results.
0812b,
we're almost there.
differing sentiments,
but that marked the end of jc1.


this may not be the best situation;
this may not be what everyone hoped for.
but definitely it'll be a great learning experience for all.
when we take time off to think through
and avoid regrets for the future.

not to forget to mention,
MYMONKEY did it!:]

after a lunch at with the class guys,
it carried on with CHR COMPANY CAMP 2008.
with most stuff prepared the day before,
we rushed off to Labrador Campsite

it was a peaceful pleasant place,
reminded me of sec3 camp.
when we were there as camper.

warmed the boys up with few starter games,
frisbee and dodgeball.
when the boys familiar themselves with their budddies in squad level.
and it went on until our first night game: rambo night



for these;
their supper.


they fought hard,


loving each other ;]
hahahahaha
featuring the funniest fella!
PRAAAAAAAAAAAVIN!
trying to kiss poor dominic.


here's when i saw their spirit;
unity in love :]


day 2- 8th nov.
the prev night was a long one.
it was a lesson to learn,
it makes an experience.

i sincerely hope things to turn out fine for him,
a fine young boy
taking stress that he wasn't reponsible for.
although the consequences are still kept in view,
i hope we do not give up guidance on him
when even his family do.
everyone live only once.
he do not deserve one full of regrets.


anyway,
plan of the day,
low elements, challenge rope, rock wall.


low elements:



spider web;
simply throwing people over



acid river;
little tarzans?



commando crawl;
here's the csm of the company on the way!















CRC:


thats pravin flying down from challenge pole!
* after standing there for half an hour
ahhahahaha

darryl tan another funny fella
preparing to go up the hugging barrel challenge
scared like what. hahahha!




and there he goes



SGT JIAMING!
my model kakia for the camp ;]

rock wall:

belayer: stanley sir!


soon kwang the monkey
on the way!


"climb on.."

the achievers :D

another belayer: JACKIE!

belay team at work



the boys enjoyed the challenges,
at moments when they're stuck,
some made comments.
that was quite a disappointing part.
but it was very very comforting when you hear voices from their peers,
"eh, cheer for him leh"
"don't say demoralising things leh"
this is when a sense of satisfaction comes in.
these boys that we put in the effort to nurture,
displayed the worthy of our efforts in just these simple gestures.


night game 2! roooooooooomanopoly
this game was quite chaotic.
forgot to take pictures

i sld have taken the photo of that group of boys la.
they were so funny
playing happily with green beans,
saving one another from slavery.
loads of those.

we had fun no doubt
but it also made me regret one thing
abt our irresponsible actions as their primer
it had a immediate backfire
when they learn the wrong things,
and we're not in the position to correct them at that instance.


day 3- 9th nov

the day everyine's looking for!
CS DAY!!!

started off with chair soccer





loads and loads of laughter

followed by CS,
which i dont have the photos.
hahah
signature phrase:
"we paid s$2000 to make ourselves run like mad dogs"


okay, now some random ones:


#0001 WESLEY sir
the BIG CHEONG


#0002 EUJIN
the SMALL CHEONG


#0003 MELVIN
ahmaooooo


#0004 DANIEL CHOW
danielPARKER

#0005 FABIAN
mama


#0006 ZHENGYU
he has GRASS allergy. hehe

#0007 ROOKE
he's the legendary FRUITARIAN

#0008 MAK JUNJIA (e one in green)
MAKMAK! he's freakin cute, please pinch him hard on the cheeks :]

#0009 DAVIS (red one behind)
JOKER. period.LOL


#0010 JASPER
the friendly ghost



these boys are simple and innocent.
these are where you find satisfaction from
after burning saturdays at parade,
with never ending meetings.
their laughter, their smiles,
are your simple but impactful rewards.


it took us one simple step;
to go forward and drop a simple touch
just by some words of concern.
their simple, direct reciprocation,
is running around you the entire day,
to share what they've got.

life's simple pleasure ;]

camp tmr!
chalet on mon!

the long awaited fun camp's finally here.
first ever having straight three days of nothing but
games and games and games.
i wonder how it'll be.
haha,
i'm sure nothing much will run wild for this camp.
pray for good weather :]

hmmmmmmmmmm
checking out on sun to get prepared for monday!
class chalet.
this is really the one to be worried abt.
turnout rate doesn't look very nice.
hope there's nothing to dampen the spirits.
Mmmm, chalet.
it sure reminded me of last year's
nothing will beat that.
it all lies in the atmosphere.
wooooooooooosh.


on another note,
tmr's also results day.
eurgh

i don't have a faith;
probably that's why
there's nothing i can rely on for now.
at times,
us, mere beings need to believe in something bigger.
before our frustration eats into us.

it's a mixed feeling.
i don't know where i'm heading to.

options are just ahead.
everything's up to me to choose.
at all times,
there're only two choices
a yes or a no;
a stop or a go.

i'm sick of this.
when i tried so hard to fulfil my commitments
i feel neither here nor there.
this suck.
it is not easy to push yourself at it
but it's worse when you're not appreciated.

i tried to make a choice in between.
i guess,
i'm just not good at it.

comeon,
this is just a challenge to the mind.




i've got no idea what's running through my mind.
i tried to ignore.
i tried to be normal.
i tried to treat you insignificant.

but obviously,
these efforts gotten no results.
i don't like the way now.
the way when i can't control
my emotions
my thoughts
my actions.

okay.
everything, back to basics.
and we're going to be good buddies.
i hope.

don't stand so close to me